Why Do I Struggle to Forgive Myself?
All of us do wrong. Who among us is perfect?
When we fail God’s standard, some of us not only feel badly, we hate ourselves. We enter self-loathing. To cope, we self-medicate, indulge a lust, lie to ourselves about the wrong, or inflict pain on ourselves to pay for the sin.
However, the Apostle of love penned in 1 John 1:7,
“If we walk in the Light as He Himself is in the Light… the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin.”
He then says in 1 John 1:9,
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
Regardless of the past failures, as you confess these in the light, Jesus Christ is reliable and good. He will wipe clean any wrongs from your record.
Though there are earthly consequences to the things that you have done, from an eternal and judicial vantage point, it is as though you have never sinned in the eyes of God. The Bible in Hebrews 10:17 states,
“AND THEIR SINS AND THEIR LAWLESS DEEDS I WILL REMEMBER NO MORE.”
When you come confessing, “Lord I have sinned again against you,” it is as though He answers “Again? I don’t remember the last time.”
I do not intend to suggest God ceases to be omniscient. He will always know all things, but just as the court declares absolution of all wrongdoing for someone who is pronounced “not guilty,” so does God.