The Bitter, Salvaged Life of Jennifer Smith
Jennifer cussed the chaplain out when she arrived at prison to serve her sixteen-year sentence. In the privacy of her cell, she repeatedly beat her head against the concrete wall until it bled. Without drugs, she knew no other way to mask the anger and bitterness she had known from childhood.
For most of her twenty-two years, Jennifer’s parents said she was a mistake—that she was supposed to be a boy. So, Jennifer believed that God makes mistakes.
At ten, a nineteen-year-old from church began molesting Jennifer. To add to this evil, he asked her to act out Bible stories such as Adam and Eve. At this point, Jennifer wanted nothing to do with God.
She started drinking at age eleven to make the pain go away. By twelve, she was cutting, participating in criminal activity, and abusing drugs. By seventeen, she was a “mule” that trafficked drugs from Tulsa to Memphis.
One night, wondering how her life had turned out the way it had, Jennifer breathed a simple prayer, “Help. If You’re listening, help.”
She didn't think about that prayer again until twenty-seven days later when she saw six squad cars in her rearview mirror. As Jennifer was slammed onto the pavement and cuffed, a load lifted from her. While she didn't know what it would look like, she was certain life as she knew it was over.
After arriving at prison, Jennifer mocked the inmates in the PAL program (Principles & Applications for Life—a Bible boot camp of sorts). But she watched them. Their joy haunted her, because it was something she had never known.
After a while, she caved and joined them. For ten weeks, she heard things she’d never heard before: Forgiveness equals freedom; God uses authority for direction, provision, and protection for our lives. And, if she would believe in Jesus’ sacrifice for her sins, He would give her a new identity.
Ten weeks came and went, and the chaplain asked Jennifer to stay ten more. She couldn't understand why—after the trouble she’d caused—but Jennifer agreed.
On December 21, 2000, God’s Spirit interacted with her through His Word for the first time in her life. When that class ended, Jennifer got on her knees and told God, if He could salvage what was left of her life, it was His.
And, it has been, ever since.
"If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new." (2 Cor. 5:17)
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