The Agony of Guilt
Psalm 38:1-11 Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. Your arrows have pierced me, and your hand has come down on me. Because of your wrath there is no health in my body; there is no soundness in my bones because of my sin. My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear. My wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly. I am bowed down and brought very low; all day long I go about mourning. My back is filled with searing pain; there is no health in my body. I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart. All my longings lie open before you, Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you. My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes. My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds; my neighbors stay far away.
I used to think the worst pain possible was that of jamming your toe into the bed frame late at night. The unexpected shear of pain that shoots to your very soul and makes grown men weep has to be the worst pain possible.
But then there is guilt.
Guilt can cause all the agony that David describes in the psalm above and more. That may be why Jesus would often forgive a person of their sins after He had physically healed them. He knew that physical healing was of little use if the spiritual healing wasn’t complete.