My Greatest Spirit


Chris Malkemes shares her poem titled "Decisions" and God's Sovereignty through them all.

I'm being vulnerable here. My greatest insecurity is "decisions." Every day I have to make decisions. Sometimes they're good and sometimes not so good. The hardest part is when my decision impacts others.

Right now I am almost in tears because of a decision I made. Our dog was sick this weekend and I gave her Tylenol. She's with the vet right now because she coughed up blood. They are very concerned and so am I.

Why didn't I check things out? Why didn't I call the vet and why did I think I had the answers? Learn from my lesson. Never give your dog Tylenol.

I bow my head in prayer right now and ask Him to make her well. I ask you to pray for her too. Her name is Breezy Lynn—a ten-year-old Border Collie. I have to trust Him. I need to trust Him. I will trust Him right now.

She was riddled with cancer. The blood work didn't show it. The examination didn't reveal it. The vet didn't know it. The decision to give her Tylenol forced them to give her an X-Ray. She died at 3:45 p.m. today. She is no longer in pain. We will miss her. 

We are very sad here. But, God gives comfort. I don't know why such animals who give un-conditional love have to live such a short time. As my husband says, "I'm going to ask God that question when I get there."

I wrote this piece on decisions a few months ago. Little did I realize it would come back to remind me the truth behind every decision we make.




They come at me every day demanding my attention.

“Hindsight is better than foresight,” they say.


Decisions. Decisions.

Weigh the pros and cons.

Muddle through the details hoping it’s the right choice.


Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

Take advice – don’t take advice

Employ common sense from the past.


Decisions. More decisions.


Do I seek God?

Do I ask His opinion?

The choice is mine to make.


Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

Which way will I go?


No matter what decision I make, my times are in His hands.

No matter what happens, He knows the end from the beginning.

No matter what, He remains Sovereign.


Trust in the Lord

Lean not on your own understanding!

He is not called the "Wonderful Counselor" lightly.


I have to make a decision, Lord!

I need your help.

Why so downcast oh my soul?


He says, "I will never leave you nor forsake you. Trust Me. I am here."

Peace floods my spirit.

Comfort pours over my soul.


Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

An opportunity to see God intervene

An opportunity to trust Him.


It is a good thing to be in the hands of the Living God.

Those who know Your name will trust in You, for You, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek You. Psalm 9:10

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