Pastor Ron Edmondson shares his longing for Home.
Instead, they were longing for a better country--a Heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them.
(Hebrews 11:16 NIV)
No one is home but me. I have time just to sit and think. As I pour out my heart to God, tears have begun to flow. I don't really know why, but it feels like something is missing in my life. No, it is not that I'm lonely. I have a wonderful wife and two precious boys, and this house is usually busy with balls flying through the air and a puppy dog barking, but being alone has never made me afraid. In fact, I relish it at times.
No, it is obvious that what I'm missing is my Father in Heaven. I'm homesick! While I recognize that I can talk with Him now, and, at times, especially in times of quietness like this, I can even sense Him talking to me. His Word is so real to me as I hold it in my lap reading Isaiah 33, but there seems to be this distance. But, I long to be in His physical Presence. I long to have Him hold me; to feel His Hands wipe the tears from my eyes.
I long to have no more separation between us; no more times when the sin in my life gets in the way or when my mind drifts away from Him. I want to experience the joys of Heaven; smell the fragrance of the prayers of the saints; fellowship with the angels and the saints of old. I want to visit with my grandfather, the one who died when I was young. I want to listen to the Christians persecuted through the ages tell of how God carried them through their trials, and I want to share my own experiences walking the Christian path. I want to sit at the feet of Jesus, marveling at His glorious wonder. I want to sing praises to His Name!
I want to meet you, the faithful reader of Mustard Seeds. Oh, how I long to join you in Heaven! I understand what today's verse means, how these heroes of the faith were longing for God's country. I feel that way tonight! Let the tears come, because they are tears with a purpose...a longing for Home!